Psychiatric Report July 20, 2004
History
Patient, Jake Dali Hastings Jr., an unmarried thirty-one year old Caucasian male, is on his way to making a full recovery. After numerous treatments, he released in a recent discussion admittance to causing his father’s death. He opened up by claiming he felt his childhood experience triggered substantial mental breakdown and isolation from the public. His mother drank in excess and wasn't prepared to handle the responsibilities of a child alone. He has shown jealous tendencies for his mother. He has been isolated by his mother, yet claims it was his own doing. He doesn’t deny that he may be suffering from mental illness.
Due to his mother’s recent release from the county prison, the patient mentioned he is no longer having feelings of anxiety over his mother. He feels her probation will help prevent her from alcohol abuse and claims that was the reason for her irrational assault and battery.
He is now claiming to smell his Father’s scent when the air conditioning system turns on at night. We have discussed this and found that less than a block away is a hospital incinerator. The patient accepted that on some days this could be the smell.
Medical History
Hyperosmia: an increased sensitivity to smell which is characteristic of someone with a neurotic or histrionic personality.
Patient, Jake Dali Hastings Jr., an unmarried thirty-one year old Caucasian male, is on his way to making a full recovery. After numerous treatments, he released in a recent discussion admittance to causing his father’s death. He opened up by claiming he felt his childhood experience triggered substantial mental breakdown and isolation from the public. His mother drank in excess and wasn't prepared to handle the responsibilities of a child alone. He has shown jealous tendencies for his mother. He has been isolated by his mother, yet claims it was his own doing. He doesn’t deny that he may be suffering from mental illness.
Due to his mother’s recent release from the county prison, the patient mentioned he is no longer having feelings of anxiety over his mother. He feels her probation will help prevent her from alcohol abuse and claims that was the reason for her irrational assault and battery.
He is now claiming to smell his Father’s scent when the air conditioning system turns on at night. We have discussed this and found that less than a block away is a hospital incinerator. The patient accepted that on some days this could be the smell.
Medical History
Hyperosmia: an increased sensitivity to smell which is characteristic of someone with a neurotic or histrionic personality.
Family
History
Acute Bi-polarism in the patient’s mother.
Medication
Zoloft and Clonazepam
Assessment of History
He is highly intellectual, yet never managed to complete high school. He was not sexually active. This patient denied multiple times any alcohol or drug abuse.
Current Mental State
He is pleasant and cooperative but very quiet. He is alert and responsive to movements of other patients. His orientation is full for time, place and person. Mood is becoming less erratic. Thinking is now logical. Thought content is informative. He is not actively suicidal. He has a fear of stormy days. He has a strong sexual appetite.
Assessment
Axis I -- Minor depression, recurrent.
Axis II -- Personality disorder, avoidant type.
Axis III -- Moderately-severe psychosocial stress.
Axis IV – Pre-existing Oedipal GAF Complex
Acute Bi-polarism in the patient’s mother.
Medication
Zoloft and Clonazepam
Assessment of History
He is highly intellectual, yet never managed to complete high school. He was not sexually active. This patient denied multiple times any alcohol or drug abuse.
Current Mental State
He is pleasant and cooperative but very quiet. He is alert and responsive to movements of other patients. His orientation is full for time, place and person. Mood is becoming less erratic. Thinking is now logical. Thought content is informative. He is not actively suicidal. He has a fear of stormy days. He has a strong sexual appetite.
Assessment
Axis I -- Minor depression, recurrent.
Axis II -- Personality disorder, avoidant type.
Axis III -- Moderately-severe psychosocial stress.
Axis IV – Pre-existing Oedipal GAF Complex
Plan
Upon his release this week I have advised Jake to stay on Zoloft, 50mg q.d. and Clonazepam 10mg q.d. Zoloft should be beneficial in treating the atypical depression and Oedipal disorder.
Upon his release this week I have advised Jake to stay on Zoloft, 50mg q.d. and Clonazepam 10mg q.d. Zoloft should be beneficial in treating the atypical depression and Oedipal disorder.
Once
these are under control, a few sessions of supportive psychotherapy and
counseling should be helpful in ameliorating some of his difficulties
associated with early childhood trauma. To this effect, I, Dr. Irene Goldstein, will personally and randomly visit his home;
not only for psychotherapy but to study the dangling egg that has dominated his
rambling dreams.
Father's Painting of the Noosed Egg
One week from being eight-years-old, Jake Jr. stood, frozen like a statue in the middle of the street. He
clutched Father’s birthday gift tight against his belly, a special birdhouse
crafted with his innocent hands. It was a gruesome thing what Jake Jr. witnessed
next—black rubber shrieking across the asphalt and the Jeep Cherokee missing
him by inches, the violent impact into the telephone pole only a few feet away.
The tearing of metal, the bumper folding around the pole and the final shotgun explosion
of the airbag echoed through Jake Jr.’s skull. He squeezed the birdhouse tighter
and tighter against his body. Father’s birthday gift punctured through his
t-shirt, then through his soft skin. His lips stretched wide, tearing the
corners of his mouth as he desperately tried to force a scream, but his dry
throat clamped shut.
He didn't think the collision caused Father any harm but the groun was silent for seconds. His young nerves were jolted again when the pole
snapped in half and tore the tangled power lines down with it. He gazed waiting for movement, but fervent with menacing
white and blue sparks, the power lines arched and snapped, suffocating Father’s Jeep
Cherokee. Jake Jr.’s bare feet became heavy. Anchored to the asphalt his eyes
locked in on Father. Desperate to get out, Father pounded the door with his
shoulder, but the wrinkled door wouldn’t budge. Father stopped struggling—eyes calmed,
peace fell over his face—tender eyes met with his sons. Instantly Father shook.
It was inhuman the way his body convulsed, the way his head bounced off the
steering wheel with a supernatural power. Jake Jr. watched Father’s facial
structure change, it twisted and torqued like a demon possessed his under-skin.
The transformer on the pole near Jake Jr. was bloated like a dead carcass. He heard the sizzling and looked up as the transformer grew bright,
bright, brighter—PcccOWWW.
A massive
concussion of energy slammed into Jake Jr., knocking him off his feet. He
landed flat on his back, his head whiplashed off of the asphalt knocking him unconscious.
The birdhouse was thrown high and came down, splitting into shards. Two crimson spots expanded on the front of Jake Jr.’s white t-shirt as he
laid lifeless only feet away from the neighbor’s trash can. Mother threw
the screen door open with her left hand, holding an unwashed plate in the other.
She stood motionless on the porch, wrapped in her kitchen apron. Her face
turned white and fingers trembled. The wet plate fell from her hand as smoke rose
off of Father’s charcoaled skin. His smoke swirled up and out of the shattered
windows of the vehicle, leaving a foul stench that hovered thick over the
manicured neighborhood of Houston, Texas. The air became stagnant with a silent
atmosphere of confession.
* * *
Twenty-two
years after Father’s tragic death and Mother forbade anyone to sit in her
husband’s recliner. And for twenty-two long years, Jake Jr. asked:
“Mom, can I please
sit in his recliner and watch T.V. tonight?”
“Are
you your Father?” Mother snapped.
“No
Mother, I’m not Father.”
“Then don’t
ask again.”
Yet again he
asked, was denied, and sat Indian style on the un-vacuumed shag carpet, and watched
Vanna White on Father’s small television that had the broken rabbit ear
antenna. For the last couple years Mother changed her routine. One particular evening
she had left again to drink with the old biddy next door. Bored of Wheel of
Fortune re-runs, Jake Jr. stood in the living room and scratched his two-week-old
beard, wondering what to do. The Purple Hairs—what Mother called the oldies in
the neighborhood that dyed their hair, causing it to turn a weird violet color—told
Jake Jr. that he was a spitting image of his Father. They said his long face
reflected a quiet confidence, and how his green eyes were so very handsome. The
way he stood tall and lean, and carried himself with loose limbs, aroused the
Purple Hairs. They even said he looked like It’s
a Wonderful Life’s, James Stewart. Mother said he looked more like a child
flailing about at recess.
Alone and
bored he decided to study Father’s miserable brown recliner. Behind the
recliner there hung a dingy painting on an outdated wood-paneled wall that ran
full circle around the room. In the dim room his eyes strained to see the
colors of the painted red horizon. He followed the unique colors of the horizon
down and admired the way an egg hung from a string, suspended, sunny side up
the egg was, and dangling so close to the other eggs on the plate just below. Years
ago as Father hung the painting; he mentioned to Jake Jr. that it was part of
the Dada movement. Naturally, Jake Jr. thought Father was making another sly
joke about how he was the painter. But now, after so many years, that painting whispered
to Jake Jr.—something was undiscovered which left him longing for more.
He turned
around and looked down at the stale brown recliner. He ran his fingers across the
tattered headrest where Father’s head rested. The wood lever on the right side
was glossy where Father’s fingers would wrap around to hoist himself into the
reclined position. The left side of the recliner had a pocket that still held a
yellowed newspaper, dated one day before Father’s fatal electrocution, almost twenty-two
years ago to the day. The front article on the paper read, Hurricane Allen to Pound Southeast Texas, dated August 8th 1980,
one day after Father’s death Hurricane Allen hit, but just to the South. The square
end table next to the recliner had an ash tray with crushed cigarette butts from
the last evening Father had sat in the house.
Jake Jr.
grabbed the recliner with both arms and shook it violently, rocked it, and then
collapsed into it face first. He turned and sat forward, swallowing down putrid
emotion. He had never cried over Father and realized he still hadn’t, those
would have been tears of enlightenment. He was amazed how well the recliner fit
him and imagined Father sitting there within him. Father would now live through
him and he knew he would finally be the man that Mother wanted.
With pride
he lifted himself out of the seat. Several thuds bounced off the matted shag carpet
below the recliner. He crouched down to take a look under and his left knee
popped, confirming, he was in fact old enough to be Father. He looked under and
couldn’t see past the coagulation of dust and hair. So he shoved his arm under
and felt around to discover coins, lots of coins. Anxious to gather this new
found treasure, he scraped the dust and coins forward to his face, until he
grabbed every last one. He took one last glance under and could see something
glittering towards the back. He reached around and wrapped his fingers around
something larger than a coin. He put it in front of his eyes and his face
glowed, he inhaled with joy when he saw the wrist watch, Father’s watch. Jake
Jr. remembered when Father would take the watch off and set it on the
nightstand. He would sneak in and find Father’s Tums sitting near the watch. He
would take two or three anti-acid pills, chew them up like candy and inspect the
worn leather band and gold bezel of the watch.
He stood in
the living room and stared at the microwave clock in the kitchen. Mother would
be home shortly, so he made his way to his bedroom and piled the coins and gold
watch onto his bed. He moved by the locked door of Father’s office and into
Mother’s room where he grabbed Father’s slacks, belt, leather shoes and a
collared button down shirt from the closet.
Back in his
room he laid the clothes right next to the pocket change and wristwatch. The front
door squeaked open just in time. Just in time.
He heard
Mother’s tired voice: “Come in please, and this time I’ll make you a drink.”
“No, I’m
tired. Oh, Make sure to remember our plans to go to Irene Goldstein’s house tomorrow.”
“How could I forget with you living next door! Always talking about
Irene’s this and Irene’s that.”
Mother
casually slammed the heavy door of the house. Jake Jr. recognized
the other voice as the old biddy that lived next door. Since Father’s death she
had fed Mother enough drinks to justify five generations of liver problems. Yet Mother was in the kitchen making another drink,
probably vodka and a splash of grape cough syrup.
Jake Jr. hesitated. He stood in the dark, with his bedroom door wide open. He opened his eyes and the words came out, "Did your
evening go well dear?”
Mother replied
as if she didn’t hear him, “If you need me I’ll be watching T.V. in bed, Jake.”
Jake Jr. felt like a man standing there wearing only tight, white underwear. He new he manned up and smiled
when he heard Mother’s blatant invitation. He knew Father hadn’t been romantic
with Mother for a couple years before his death. As a child Jake Jr. didn’t think twice
about the coldness that grew between his parents. But now, he was older and so much wiser; knew it was
Father’s fault for the emotional distancing, and what he had done was the right
thing. Mainly, he knew what was about happen was meant to be.
Mother
walked by Jake Jr.’s room; his tall wiry frame stood motionless behind the
shadow of the door. Her bedroom door closed and he walked to the bathroom. He
grabbed hold of the solid metal shaft of Father’s old shaver. Foamed up his
face and stroked. It glided through his thick facial hair. The task was easy
with Father’s sharp razor. He turned the nozzle of the steaming hot water off
and gazed into the mirror. His brow furled and lips smirked as he admired the
close resemblance of who he had become. He pushed the razor head against the
sink until the blades bent loose. He dislodged one skinny blade and brought it
to his room, where he carefully put Father’s clothes on, making sure to tuck the
shirt in tight and lace up the shoes with a perfect bowtie knot. The wristwatch
fit perfect. It pushed his arm hair out of the way just like he remembered on
Father’s arm, and used the same enlarged hole on the leather band. He filled
his front pants pocket with the loose change, slid the small razor blade in the
shirt pocket and turned all the lights out as he walked around the house.
He sat in
the recliner with Father’s sleek clothes and watched the microwave clock minute
by minute. He remembered when Father used to come home with his shirt untucked,
which was something young Jake Jr. always noticed. Father recognized and would quickly
tuck it back in. Jake Jr. sat there and thought about what he helped Father
hide. Blood rushed to his face and he felt his ears pulse. Father then routinely
grabbed a cold beer, sat in his recliner, smoked a cigarette, and clicked on
wheel of fortune. Jake Jr. would sit on the carpet as he did for so long, and
watch the wheel spin and Vanna flip letters with Father—but not anymore.
Feeling less romantic, he wondered if her seduction towards him had to end. But
Father was there, and Father needed romance, a lot of romance.
The
microwave clock blinked 12:33. Jake Jr.’s mouth was dry, but he had more
important things to take care of before he treated himself to one of Father’s
cold beers. He sneaked quietly to Mother’s room, back hunched and feet moving
softly in the heavy shoes. His hand turned the cold door handle. He gently
pushed and the hinges squeaked for the first few inches. The T.V. was on but
muted, and the room had the peculiar odor of vinegar. He lifted his leg inch by
inch and paused, and then another inch, just as slow as possible. Ten minutes
had passed which resulted in one large stride into the room and overcoming the creaky
floorboard. Thirty minutes later he reached her bedside and stared down. The ceiling
fan was swirling around above his head. It was set on the first pull. The light
breeze felt cool against the wet droplets built up on his forehead.
Since
Father’s death, Jake Jr.’s had gained the power of a Bloodhound. The scent of
Father lingered in his nose for weeks after the accident. After Father’s scent finally
dissipated, the Doctor said Jake Jr. had acquired a special gift, an
extraordinary sense of smell. He tried to tell Mother on several occasions that
it was a curse and it could drive him mad. No one listened. The smell of the
stale carpet, Mother’s alcohol, and even worse, the old biddy’s perfume that
lingered on Mother had finally pushed him to the brink. Oh, how he prayed to have
Father’s scent in his nose again.
Liquor
permeated up from Mother’s open mouth. He realized she may never wake enough to
comprehend, so he reached in his pocket and gently jingled the change—and
jingled again and again. Minutes passed of sporadic jingling, and she finally
turned over, facing away. He lifted the covers and fought gravity with every
millimeter of movement as he cautiously applied weight to the mattress. He laid
there staring at the back of her dark head. Slow movement after slow movement,
the room enclosed on him as his eyes inched closer to the back of her neck. Another
slow hour crept by when he finally achieved the position, only inches from her
body. Now it was her turn. Minutes ticked by and he could feel the sweat patch
building up on his back. She showed no reaction, so he moved his hand just as
slow as possible and reached in his pocket. The pocket change jingled through
his fingers and fell deeper into the pocket, yet still no movement from her. The
windows were turning dark blue, showing slight signs of daybreak.
Jake Jr. was
out of time, so he reached for his front shirt pocket and pulled the razor
blade out. Suddenly she jerked her head forward, breathed two large breaths and
settled again. He froze when he saw her greasy silver hair was hiding the T.V.
remote. He slipped the blade between the gap in his teeth. Minutes passed when
he finally had the remote aimed and the T.V. went off. The room was black and
she groaned. That’s when it happened. She moaned and backed up. Squeezing tight
against his quivering frame he couldn’t deny himself when the ceiling fan
started to growl and wobble. WHHAA—WHOOOOEEER—WHHAR—HHHHOOR--WWWAAA
It was too
much! He squeezed his eyes in pain hoping it would stop. It didn’t so he slid
back. His tolerance ran low and his movements became less fluid. He grabbed the
top of the headboard with both hands and hoisted his body up. Now on his knees,
his face was above the headboard and inches from the window. The sky was a hue
of blue only seen in the early hours of morning. He blinked and could faintly
see the strip of manicured grass that separated the old biddy’s house from his
own. Jake Jr. and Mother shared that fine patch of grass with the old biddy. It
led down to the shared grassy knoll that father used to call it. There was a
clear view of that overlooked the bay. He remembered lounging back on the knoll
with Father and watching the large boats come in from the Gulf of Mexico.
Father would
tell him, “One day we’ll have one of those Jake. Your mother and I have been
saving.”
His heart
raced as he thought about how exciting it would be to steer the largest and most
streamlined boat on the water.
He snapped
back to attention when he saw a light flip on in the old biddy’s house. It was
her bathroom. Shades wide open and Jake Jr. was close enough to say hello if the
windows weren’t closed. Her naked body walked into the bathroom. She kept at an
angle that only revealed her shriveled back. But he didn’t blink. She turned and
exposed her breast. They were round and alert as he had ever seen. His lack of
experience with woman didn’t deprive him of knowing that the old biddy was
still holding her own in that department. She stopped moving and suddenly
looked out the window, directly into his eyes. For a split second he saw how
lovely she must have been as a young woman. The light went off. He wondered if
she saw him and quickly decided it was unlikely. She was no longer the old
biddy to Jake Jr., and just as Father often called her, she was Mary. After
all, they shared a patch of grassy knoll that looked into the deep water of the
bay.
Mother made
a sudden movement, the bed creaked, her upper body jolted and she went silent.
Except for the gurgling sound of liquid pouring out of her mouth, all was
quiet, including the ceiling fan. The room became full of a pungent odor. His
plans would now have to wait and he wondered if he should still follow his love
or just end Mother’s suffering of lost love. Mary, the nakedness of Mary, once
again, came in between Mother and what she deserved.
He pinched
his nose close and undressed, but was forced to let go and use two hands to
unbutton the collared shirt. The stench of stomach bile and grape cough syrup burned
his nostrils. He hung Father’s clothes exactly as he found them. Stripped to his
underwear and walked carefully to the partially opened door of Mother’s room.
His left hand held the loose change as he stepped over the creaky floorboard
and exited the tainted room. In the living room he slid the loose change under
the recliner and pushed the pile of dust in afterwards. He hesitated, then took
off the gold wristwatch and set it exactly how he found it ten hours earlier.
Jake
Jr. laid down on his bed, always on the right side. He opened his mouth and
dislodged the razor blade from the gap in his teeth and slid it under his left
side pillow. He happily fell asleep with a slight taste of blood in his mouth,
a pleasant tradeoff. Father’s beer was going to have to wait one more night.
* * *
That
morning Mother was up and scrubbing the stain on her bed. As if cleaning it
every morning was going to get rid of two years of vomit stain. Jake Jr. was
awakened by her insane scrubbing. The alarm clock flashed 9:33. It was Saturday
and he fought the urge to watch Saturday morning cartoons. Cartoons sucked now-a-days compared to what
he remembered, that made the decision easier. He poured his own breakfast that
morning, plain cheerios in a bowl, and he even brewed a pot of coffee. The
cluttered nook was centrally located between the kitchen and the dark living
room. He sat there at the small round table. Stacks of unread newspapers
surrounded his bowl, but that didn’t stop him from gingerly crunching away spoonfuls
of cheerios. Mother whisked by doing her typical chores, always tidying up the
same five spots: her bed, her toilet, her body, the kitchen sink, and the
purple stains left on the counter. She was wearing her thin after-shower robe,
which announced every curve of her 5’ 3”, 160 pound frame. Her wet silver hair
stuck tight to her head. She looked at Jake Jr. with her round face and chubby
cheeks and smirked. Her dark eyes and short eyelashes would have repulsed most,
but Jake Jr. smiled back and nodded with a mouth full of cheerios.
* * *
He was
getting excited as evening approached. Mother was dolled up more than expected.
Jake Jr. watched as she spent extra time to curl her hair. The doorbell rang.
His excitement faded. He stood in the hallway as Mother passed by.
“Ok, they’re
finally here, Jake. Can you please stay quiet and out of our way tonight?”
“What? I have
plans tonight, we have... I thought you were leaving to go to freaking Irene’s
anyways?”
She walked
backed to Jake Jr. and stared him coldly in the eyes. She exaled and her
features softened. Suddenly and without warning she brought her right hand back
over her left shoulder and unleashed a violent backhand accross the front of
Jake Jr.’s face. Blood trickled out of his nostrils and crossed over his lip.
He looked down and watched it splash off of the hallway’s yellow linoleum. The
doorbell rang again and Mother took quick short steps to answer it. Jake Jr. quickly
retreated to his room. He realized Mother’s anger was towards Father, not him,
so he decided to forgive her. Until that moment, Jake Jr. was never sure if
Mother knew about Father’s promiscuity, she must have. Jake Jr. knew he was
closer, and it didn’t matter that tonight’s plans were foiled. He believed
Mother was on board, he believed she loved him as she loved Father.
* * *
The sun was
long gone and the ladies were getting louder. Mother was about to open up a
second bottle of red wine.
“We need
something that has a little more kick or I’ll fall asleep like my dead husband did,”
announced Irene in her raspy voice.
Mother
replied, “Geez, Thank God Almighty, I was waiting for someone to say it before
me. I thought the party was never going to happen.” She danced her way into the
kitchen. Mary and Irene laughed obnoxiously as Mother pulled out a bottle of
100 proof, Captain Morgan Rum from underneath the sink.
“Whose deal
is it?” Irene asked.
Jake Jr.
stood in the hallway. His nose was cleaned up, and he wore ironed jeans and an
off-brand polo shirt. Trying to be inconspicuous he peaked into the living
room. The newspapers and most of Father’s junk was stuffed in the corner of the
living room and hidden under a dingy sheet. There sat the ladies, around a
foldable table in the middle of the living room, only a few feet from Father’s
recliner. Mother had put bright new bulbs in the ceiling light. The living room
was brighter than Jake Jr. had ever seen. His face turned red when he saw
Father’s ash tray emptied out and sitting on the table in front of Irene. She
flicked a fresh ash into it and took a heavy drag of her cigarette. “Foolish
women,” he muttered, and almost understood why Father could have done it.
Mary looked
up from her lousy hand of cards. She saw Jake Jr. and her eye brows raised in
excitement. “I fold.” She threw her cards down on the table. “Excuse me while I
use the bathroom.”
Irene shouted
at Mother. “Damn it, a full house does beat a four of a kind.” Smoke followed the
words out of her mouth.
Mother
grumbled, “If you have to cheat to win, then I will too.”
Mary walked
up to Jake Jr. unnoticed by the ladies. Irene continued to argue as Mother
refilled her empty glass with fresh ice and rum. Jake Jr. saw a spark in Mary’s
eye. She was up to no good, and he now knew she did see him at the window last night.
She grabbed his arm and pulled him into his bedroom. He reached out and flipped
the light on before she pushed him against his dresser. She put her hand on his
shoulder and professed, “Jake, last night I saw your father in you.” Her voice
sounded young and smooth. “You were too young to know, but your father and I
had something special and,” she inched closer to his face, “and I want that
with you.”
She pressed
her lips tight against Jake Jr.’s. It was softer than he imagined and wetter.
Her odor wasn’t perfume as he anticipated. She repositioned her hips and her breeze
crossed his face, baby powder lingered in his nose. Her mouth pressed firmly against his, sharing
all her tongue, he couldn’t breathe and opened his eyes. A flash of green
crossed his vision followed by a loud thud. Suddenly, her false teeth rammed
deep into his mouth. He grabbed her and tried to push her away, but her hug was
locked tight around his back. She was falling to the floor and dragging him
along. He tried to roll, only causing her to slam straight on top of his body,
face bouncing of his forehead. Still trapped below her, he shoved her head
aside and his vision cleared. Mother was looking down at them, holding the green
bottle of unopened red wine in her hand. Her face wasn’t round and cheerful
anymore, her jaw was long and mean, eyes squinty and black; her mouth gritting.
He yelled, “What
the Hell, Mother?”
Mother stared down motionless and lifted her leg and pointed
the heel of her black pump into Mary’s side and shoved the limp body off of
Jake Jr. Pain throbbed in his mouth and he reached in and felt for a loose
tooth. Mother grabbed his hand and hoisted him up. They stared down at the bent
body.
Mother broke
the silence, “She has nice breasts, doesn’t she?”
He turned
white and nodded, “How, how do you know?”
“Your father
told me, Jake. She kisses good too, doesn’t she?”
Jake nodded
and smirked. “But she smells like baby powder.”
Irene belted
out from the living room, “Are we going to keep playing or do y’all want to
just give me your chips?”
“You think
she’s dead?” Jake whispered.
“Maybe,”
Mother turned to walk out then stopped. “Jake, throw her on the bed.”
In the
living room Irene looked annoyed when Mother approached with the wine bottle
still in hand.
“I’m sorry
Irene, but Mary’s drunk and fell asleep in Jake’s room.” Mother pointed down the
hall motioning towards where Mary laid unconscious. “But on the bright side I
can continue giving you poker lessons on another night.”
Irene sounded
concerned, “Well that’s not like her, she could usually hold her own.”
“Not my
Rum.” Mother laughed.
Jake Jr. heard
the buzzing of Irene’s car reversing out of the driveway. He walked into the
living room and found Mother standing in front of Father’s recliner, spellbound
by the painting on the wall. The colors were vibrant as ever with the new light
bulbs she installed above: the egg was suspended like a broken pendulum from
the noose, its reflection, a shadowed pocket watch. How Mother loved that
painting as much as Jake Jr.
Jake Jr.
stood close behind Mother. She turned around and hugged him, wrapping her hands
as far around his body as possible.
She
whispered to the side of his face, “Tonight is going to be special.”
Her warm
breath encased inside her hair and trapped the rancid liquor breath in Jake
Jr.’s nose. He tried to hold his breath but only lasted a second. He exhaled with
a loud wail. He blew her silver hair out of his face. And with the exception of
Irene’s lingering cigarette smoke, he was breathing fresh air again. That
exhale also opened the view to the painting, the dangling egg sunny side up. He
examined the painting while his mother held him tight, shifting her weight from
left leg to right leg and back. It suddenly hit his eyes! His brain tried to
interpret whether he was imagining whose figure stood in front of him. All this
time and he didn’t see it! He wondered, how did he not see Father standing in
that painting? Small but confident as ever, there Father was, walking through a
lit door way with son in hand.
Jake Jr.
twisted Mother around, pretending to dance. Mother laughed, enjoying the moment
that Jake Jr. had waited so long for. He stopped and sat her down in Father’s
chair.
“Stay here
honey. I’ll be right back.”
“Honey? Oh,
I love when you act like your father, it’s adorable.”
Jake Jr.
angered as he walked into the kitchen. The pressure in his head caused him to
wince, but he regained his composure before Mother noticed. He didn’t want to
be adorable. He wanted to be handsome, cute, stunning, but not freaking
adorable.
“Now close
your eyes Mother, because I have a surprise.”
He opened
the junk drawer in the kitchen and pulled out a roll of duct tape. He walked
over to her.
“Ok, what
I’m going to do is going to be a little uncomfortable, but there is a reason
for it.”
“Alright,
just do it,” Mother quipped.
“Now keep
your eyes closed until I say so.”
“I am. Now
just do it and bring me my drink.”
He was
fuming. She didn’t take him serious. He unwound some tape and wrapped it around
the back of the chair and quickly ran it around applying it tight against her
chest. He ran around and around, unrolling it until she could no longer move.
Her eyes
opened.
“What are
you doing, Jake?”
“I told you
not to open your damn eyes. You never listen—and now you’re going to pay. Making
me sit on the floor for so many years when Father’s chair just sat here empty.
But first...”
“Jake you
know that your father would have wanted it that way. You know that—”
“Shut up
Mother, SHUT UP, SHUT UP! Why is Father’s office locked? What is in there? I’ll
find out right now.”
He marched
down the hallway.
“No Jake,
Jake don’t, don’t go in there.”
He ran and
jumped shoulder first into the door. The doorframe split and the door swung
inwards. He crashed onto a wooden floor. His eyes scrolled up and it was
Father. Pictures of Father were plastered all over the walls. Every inch was
covered, but he wasn’t alone in the pictures. He was on women and or sometimes
two women. The pictures were taken from a distance, through windows, from in
closets. He looked around and found that Father was with a different woman in
almost all the pictures. One was with Irene. Father stood naked behind Irene’s
naked body, flogging her with an odd shaped whip. Jake Jr. found several
different pictures with Father and Mary. They weren’t doing ugly things, they
were kissing on a park bench, or hugging on the side of a busy street. Another
picture was of Mary sleeping in Father’s work shirt, only Father’s work shirt.
Jake Jr. pulled that picture off the wall and shoved it in his pocket as he
walked back into the living room.
“Jake, it’s
not what you think.”
He tore a
piece of tape off the roll and put it over her mouth.
“You made me
kill him. Now you will sit here and die in Father’s seat, and I’m going to make
sure that you’re as uncomfortable as possible as you fade.”
Jake grabbed
two full wine bottles and stood over Mother.
“You wanted
a drink, here’s your drink.”
He pulled them apart and smashed them
together. They bounced of each other without breaking. Mother wiggled in fear.
“DAMN IT!”
He pulled
them further apart, and with all his strength collided them together. The glass
violently shattered and red wine exploded. Mother’s face was the color of blood
and her hair was crimson red. Jake Jr. eyes stung with wine. He brought his
soaking sleeve up to wipe the wine out of his eyes. His sleeve was two shades
of red: wine red and blood red. He felt his face. His fingers found a thick
piece of glass protruding out of his cheek. The wine had caused the duct tape
to break from her lips, and she looked up at him and started laughing. Jake Jr.
filled with rage and lifted the broken wine bottle high in the air. He was
about to bring it down on Mother’s head—CRASH—the front door swung open.
“SIR, SIR,
PUT THE GLASS DOWN AND BACK AWAY FROM THE WOMAN.”
He turned his
head towards the front door and bright lights penetrated his vision.
“PLEASE PUT THE WEAPON DOWN AND STEP AWAY FROM
THE WOMAN.” He stepped back and set
the sharp bottles on the floor and then dropped to his knees. Watching COPS on
television prepared him for what was about to happen next. Three men jumped on
him, slamming his face to the ground, forcing the glass deeper into his mouth.
He tried to talk, but the glass speared his tongue preventing it from moving.
The police sat him up on his knees and faced him towards the front door. Irene
stood in the door way.
“Officers,
there should be a woman in the backroom that needs medical attention.”
Mother
started laughing. Her laughter grew loud, drunk and relentless. Jake Jr. looked
at her with the beautiful hole in his face and smiled when he saw Father’s
painting dripping with red liquid.